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i can't stop crying.

i've been crying for the past 2 hours.

i can't seem to stop.

its already 1.39am, and i have badminton training tmr at 11.

i have to wake up early tmr.

i have to sleep. but.

i can't sleep cause i'm crying.

why can't i stop crying?

i really can't.

my heart is broken into so many pieces now, i don't know how i'm going to recover from this.

i need my friends. but i'm scared that if i get closer to them, its going to be worse when they leave.

i'm trying to make new friends, but it isn't working. one particular one which i'm trying to become good friends with to help and fill the gap which my really really close friends are leaving behind is being such a slkjncdlskancdkajsnckjlasncdlan. i try, i really try. its just that you misinterpret all these and brush them off your shoulder as if its nothing.

i want to give up. i really want to.

i stopped crying after typing out this post.

now i need to sleep so that i will at least have some energy to play badminton tmr.

to my friends: please don't leave. this may sound really selfish but i need you. without you lot, i am nothing. literally. i will be like an abandoned pup, trying to find a new home.

but, always rmbr that you guys will be in my heart, and i love you all.