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15 days.

Thursday, March 24, 2011 || 5:52 PM

hey peeps.

i think i've actually been blogging alot :p 2-3 days in a row? what an accomplishment. gah. ict practical exams tmr. wheeeeeeeeeee. -.- ugh.

you know, i actually feel so extremely engulfed in obfuscation, aggravation, disconsolation and the list can go on;
and i dont know what to do about it. nguhh.

i want to rant. like seriously. but what if someone by accident reads my post and gets hurt? :O that will be bad stuffs.

there are times when i really miss you mitty. :( and this is like, one of them. i really miss the fact that you're always here for me. you're always with me, encouraging me on things which i want to do. you're always here, my shoulder to lean on. you always comfort me whenever im down. you put up with my attitude and bring me around, you turn my frown upside down. sighh. 15 days till you're back, and i cant wait :)

anyways.chem test. right. failed it. so.freaking.badly. i did not understand a SINGLE WORD on the freaking piece of paper. wait, pieces of paper. nguhh. freak. oh wells. lord donaldson will probably annihilate me on the spot, with his accidental chucking of glass beakers instead of plastic ones to my face. lolers. (if that part didnt make any sense, then uhh, basically once, Lord D was showing our class how not fragile plastics are, and started chucking plastic beakers to the floor, and whoopdeedoo! there were some glass beakers inside that tray of plastic ones, and he chucked a glass one down. and teehee. :) it brokeee. HAHAHHAHA. still makes me laugh. lol.

aaaaaaaaaaah. life still sucks. but at least i'm over you now :D suck it. im over you. i am uhh, love-less :) teehee. mehehehe. loooool. wheeeee. feels great to not like someone so much :) you know, i have to thank you for your rudeness and bad attitude that you actually give me like 24/7. like seriouslyyy. helped me loads. i didnt even know why i fell for you. hhahaha. but as i told another friend a couple of days ago: love can't be explained. it just happens. it grows uncontrollably once you get a tiny little taste of it.

but why does it still hurt so much to see you? its like, im happy when you're not around, then i see you, i rmbr all those past emotions that i felt for you before, then my happiness just like. drops. all the way down to negative infinity. right. there's no number for infinity, but screw that. you know what i mean, right? :( sighh. i really want a thank you. "thanks for helping me :) i really appreciate it." but noooo. none whatsoever. its more like: kthx. like that. sorry. sudden change of subject.

i still need to rant. i want to cry. but i cant. sometimes i really just want to like, injure myself until i bring myself to the brink of death. maybe i should like go through a near death experience. and like almost die. maybe you'll care more if i become comatose and nearly die. hmmm. but i think i'd know what you'll say: "okay. wtv." goodness. sigh.

well. i still want to cry. i dont know why. everything i seem to do is wrong. why though? i try and act like as if you're my good friend or something, and try to talk to you like how i would talk to my bestfriends, but OBVIOUSLY that CREEPS THE CRAP OUT OF YOU. you know what? i get it. i think i would feel the same if i were you. never mind. i think i finally understand why you treat me this way. i think im going through roughly the same experience. but yeah. i wouldnt actually had treated someone this nice if i were you. i praise you on that. bravo, friend. well. looks like i lost you as a friend. and if you're reading this, well, its been really nice knowing you. and uhh, i really enjoyed the times we spent together. have a nice life okay?

well, i'll just end my post with that. so yeah. i might blog later if i still feel the blues.

toodles.